reimagining

[emilie_rainbow]

So I sort of feel like I am regressing to who I was at 16. I'm not sure if I feel like this is a positive or negative thing. I'm definitely not exactly who I was at 16 (I'm not nearly as angry and I like my mom a lot more), but it's interesting to see these strings of who I am that I thought I had grown past coming back. More and more I feel like my relationship with Joel, as much as I liked to think it was this very adult, serious thing, was just another example of me becoming who my Number One Person needed and wanted me to be. And now I'm trying to figure out who I need and want me to be.

Who do you think I am, f-list? When you think CHELSEA, what do you think? Images, colors, memories, fandoms, characteristics, anything? I feel like knowing how others see you is one of the first steps to self discovery.

Also, I promise I will post pictures or funny links or something soon, I'm sure you guys are getting tired of all this introspective nonsense... >_>

Comments

[grimy13.livejournal.com]

I think of One Piece! 8D And What you wore at the PMX tea party and how bad ass you looked. But I don't know you that well yet so...

[emilie-rainbow.livejournal.com]

Haha, I am totally fine with you associating One Piece and my tea party outfit with me, since OP is super awesome and it's nice to hear my outfit worked well. :)

[grimy13.livejournal.com]

X3 Good, because I like thinking of you as a badass!

[hellodolly.livejournal.com]

You are honestly one of the most accepting people I've ever met. Inb4 "but you live in the bay area, EVERYONE'S TOLERANT" because that's a ton of BS :|. We haven't hung out a whole lot, but you are extreeeeemely humble and non-judgmental and I could learn a lot from that. Also, you're very self-reflecive as I've noticed in your journal and that is my FAVORITE quality in anyone. You just have a lot of respect for people and life in general, I've noticed.

THIS IS CHEESY I AM SORRY IT IS SO CHEESY BUT THIS IS WHAT I THINK ;_;

[emilie-rainbow.livejournal.com]

Awww, shucks, man you literally made me D'AWWW in public. It means a lot to me that you think so highly of me, because I really think you're one of the coolest people I know. ;_; when you're in cali again we need to hang more.

And I don't mind cheese, cheese is good especially on introspective entries, they really call for cheese. <3

[frauleinashley.livejournal.com]

I have two things:

1. Because the last time I saw you was in a Target about 1 year ago, it's hard to say that I know you well but I remember exactly what you were wearing. A hot pink sweater with a huge bow on the front and black tights. I'm not sure if that means you have a memorable way of dressing or if I have a selective memory of the clothes people wear... definitely a bit of both.

2. For the past few months, I have started to do something and I distinctly thought to myself that no one would give a damn except for you if I said so, and that is I have started to watch Buffy the Vampire Slayer religiously. They play really random episodes here, and not at all in order. The other day the episode where Tara's father tries to take her away and expose her hidden demon side was on and it made me cry when Buffy said "you'll have to go through me first." Any other person would think I was an idiot for crying, but I know you would understand.

[emilie-rainbow.livejournal.com]

I totally just wore that sweater the other day, that's one of my favorite winter outfits. It's nice to hear that my clothes are memorable.

Also, I'm really glad you're watching Buffy and enjoying it so much. I have at least one episode that I cry in every single season, and the one with Tara's family is definitely moving. I definitely understand. <3