New Year's Resolutions Rarely Work

[emilie_rainbow]

2009 was a weird year for me. I feel like I spent a lot of it feeling very lost and uncertain. I came back from Japan and everything was different, and I was different, and I just wanted to go back. I spent most of the year stuck inside my head, yearing and/or wistfully staring out my window. It needed to be done...I really needed to reassess my life and figure out that I wasn't very happy with where it was, or where it was going. I am so glad I made (most) of the choices I did, and I think this might be the most content I have ever felt on a New Year's Eve, at least within my recent memory.

In 2010 I would like to:

+ Eat better
+ Exercise occasionally
+ Find a good balance between school, boys, family, friends, and self
+ Read books for fun more often
+ Wear whatever I want, when I want
+ Spend more energy on learning and USING Japanese

Also graduate, not die, etc etc, but those are things that I'm pretty sure I don't need to work on, they should (theoretically) just happen. Tonight is also a Blue Moon, so I think I might light a candle and meditate or do something witchy. Not really sure what, but it seems like a blue moon on New Year's is a big event, astronomically and magically and all that superstitious jazz.

Or I might pass out with the new Sookie Stackhouse novel at ten pm. We shall see.