stress out

So, I think I may have to drop out of St. John's Europe trip, even though it mean losing roughy $450. It SUCKS SO MUCH, but I really don't think I can raise the $2,800 or so I still need, what with me not having and probably not getting a job any time soon. So...I have to lose that money. And it sucks. But Courtney is dropping out too...which, I'll admit, aided my decision to drop. The only other person who's going is Lindsey...and, Lindsey? I'm sorry, I really want to go, but I literally can't afford it. And I don't have anyone to lend me the money, and only one of the 12 or so job applications I've sent out have gone anywhere, and that one told me to come back in January. This SUCKS. I hate money.

Lost was pretty hot tonight. That's my one consolation. I guess.

Ugh.