ugh

My jetlag is ridiculous, you guys. I went to bed at about 8 PM. It's 5:30 AM and I have been awake for half an hour with no signs of going back to sleep. Yesterday, I went to bed at 6 PM and woke up at midnight(!) and went back to sleep at about 2, then woke up again at 7. It's like my body doesn't need a full 8 hours of sleep all together anymore, it just needs them here and there. THERE IS NOTHING TO DO AT 5 AM Y'ALL, NOTHING.

So, I read Midnight Sun over the past couple of days. It was...interesting. It made Robert Pattinson's portrayal of Edward make more sense (he read it and based Edward more off of that than Twilight). It's good to know that Edward isn't as OMGSOOOOPERFECT!!!1!1 as Bella thinks he is in the first book, but he's also a bit....um, well, I'll let RPattz himself sum up what I'm starting to think Edward is like (also, this is why I love RPattz so much, he actually says stuff like this out loud in official interviews):

"When you read the book," says Pattinson, looking appropriately pallid and interesting even without makeup, "it's like, 'Edward Cullen was so beautiful I creamed myself.' I mean, every line is like that. He's the most ridiculous person who's so amazing at everything. I think a lot of actors tried to play that aspect. I just couldn't do that. And the more I read the script, the more I hated this guy, so that's how I played him, as a manic-depressive who hates himself. Plus, he's a 108-year-old virgin so he's obviously got some issues there."

( I love the books, and I loooove Edward, but the more I think about them the more I realize how horrible in so many different ways there are )

Sorry, that was an intense ramble. I love the books, I promise. I love vampires and always have. I just wish SMeyer would have made them more like vampires and less like normal people so that the 13 yeard olds don't get the wrong idea, I guess. I dunno.

It's 6 AM, there's nothing to do. Thus, I write long ridiculous entries about Twilight.

Oh, also: Growing Up Cullen