reimagining

So I sort of feel like I am regressing to who I was at 16. I'm not sure if I feel like this is a positive or negative thing. I'm definitely not exactly who I was at 16 (I'm not nearly as angry and I like my mom a lot more), but it's interesting to see these strings of who I am that I thought I had grown past coming back. More and more I feel like my relationship with Joel, as much as I liked to think it was this very adult, serious thing, was just another example of me becoming who my Number One Person needed and wanted me to be. And now I'm trying to figure out who I need and want me to be.

Who do you think I am, f-list? When you think CHELSEA, what do you think? Images, colors, memories, fandoms, characteristics, anything? I feel like knowing how others see you is one of the first steps to self discovery.

Also, I promise I will post pictures or funny links or something soon, I'm sure you guys are getting tired of all this introspective nonsense... >_>