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I keep thinking about how much my life has changed in the last year, but especially the last three months.
I got very, very drunk last night. Drunk enough that I was still kinda drunk when I woke up this morning, and am now nursing my first genuine hangover. I went out to bars with people that I actually know, got very drunk, danced, made out with my boyfriend in public, got felt up by my gay bff, almost flashed whoever was standing behind me when I crawled over Jeremy to give Nicole a hug (thankfully Jeremy pulled my skirt down, lol), and overall had an amazing night of drunken debauchery.
If I went back in time and told myself I would be having this evening like four years ago? I'm not sure if my self then would be more proud or disapproving. I always envied people who were able to let themselves go enough to get that drunk and in public. I've always been a little bit uptight and have had a hard time socializing and letting to. I know drinking is not the be all end all of socializing or letting go, but in my age range it's kind of a big deal and it's what we're "supposed" to be doing. I always felt like I was missing out on that fun, but I also kind of felt like a little...superior? Because I didn't get wasted and stumble around and drink to the point where I felt like I was going to throw up. (I didn't throw up, btw, just felt a lil pukey this morning).
But I had so much fun. I never understood why people went to bars or got soo wasted and crazy, but it's fun. And it was a safe environment, I was with my coworkers, and my favorite coworkers at that, and my lovely boyfriend who knows how to take care of a hungover girl the next day.
So...yeah. This might not seem like a huge change, but if you knew me during certain points in my life? You'd know that it really, really is. A positive change, but a change none the less.
I got very, very drunk last night. Drunk enough that I was still kinda drunk when I woke up this morning, and am now nursing my first genuine hangover. I went out to bars with people that I actually know, got very drunk, danced, made out with my boyfriend in public, got felt up by my gay bff, almost flashed whoever was standing behind me when I crawled over Jeremy to give Nicole a hug (thankfully Jeremy pulled my skirt down, lol), and overall had an amazing night of drunken debauchery.
If I went back in time and told myself I would be having this evening like four years ago? I'm not sure if my self then would be more proud or disapproving. I always envied people who were able to let themselves go enough to get that drunk and in public. I've always been a little bit uptight and have had a hard time socializing and letting to. I know drinking is not the be all end all of socializing or letting go, but in my age range it's kind of a big deal and it's what we're "supposed" to be doing. I always felt like I was missing out on that fun, but I also kind of felt like a little...superior? Because I didn't get wasted and stumble around and drink to the point where I felt like I was going to throw up. (I didn't throw up, btw, just felt a lil pukey this morning).
But I had so much fun. I never understood why people went to bars or got soo wasted and crazy, but it's fun. And it was a safe environment, I was with my coworkers, and my favorite coworkers at that, and my lovely boyfriend who knows how to take care of a hungover girl the next day.
So...yeah. This might not seem like a huge change, but if you knew me during certain points in my life? You'd know that it really, really is. A positive change, but a change none the less.
