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I guess I have a plan then
Mar. 25th, 2011 11:42 amI met with my old professor from UCSC yesterday to talk about what you can do with a feminist studies degree and whether or not I should go to graduate school.
I'm applying for graduate school this fall/winter.
She wants me to apply to like Berkeley, Yale, UCLA, USC, Brown, UCSD, UCSB...fucking crazy shit right there.
I'm excited because I think this might be my thing. I don't know why I didn't want it to be. Like being an academic, professionally, is refusing to grow up and get a real job. But being a professor? That's a real job. I'd have to publish shit. Like BOOKS, man. But I'm scared because THIS MIGHT BE MY THING. This might be the ACTUAL plan. No more playing around. If I do this, I have to do it all the way and COMMIT. I'm actually not very good at committing. It's scary to commit to something like this.
But it does feel right. Like when I decided to study abroad in Japan. Terrifying, panic attack inducing...but right.
I'm applying for graduate school this fall/winter.
She wants me to apply to like Berkeley, Yale, UCLA, USC, Brown, UCSD, UCSB...fucking crazy shit right there.
I'm excited because I think this might be my thing. I don't know why I didn't want it to be. Like being an academic, professionally, is refusing to grow up and get a real job. But being a professor? That's a real job. I'd have to publish shit. Like BOOKS, man. But I'm scared because THIS MIGHT BE MY THING. This might be the ACTUAL plan. No more playing around. If I do this, I have to do it all the way and COMMIT. I'm actually not very good at committing. It's scary to commit to something like this.
But it does feel right. Like when I decided to study abroad in Japan. Terrifying, panic attack inducing...but right.
